There is no secret to life. There is no secret telescope for us to look through that will allow us a more in depth look to see the details that we are missing. Sometimes I think that I do have a selective scope on the imaginary lens that I am looking through. I think I understand something or become upset because I think that something is more complicated than it is, but it turns out that I am completely wrong. This happens more often than not.
I cannot tell you how often I have fallen prey to my own viewpoint. I have set myself up for failure and disappointment. There are good things in my life and I believe that they are too good to be true, so I push them aside, or do not believe that they are real. The reality of the good things in my life becomes hazy, as I push it aside and try to pretend that it is not there, thinking that I am protecting myself. However, this places greater disappointment within my life.
I am fortunate to have people that care about me. I have a family that loves me. I have friends that would do anything for me. I have people to talk to when times are difficult and I have loved ones that share in the happy times. Even today it became a reality as I texted a few people about something good that happened to me, and not one did not text me back. I got notes of encouragement and my roomies even wanted to celebrate with me. I am a lucky girl, even though it is not easy to see sometimes.
Every year I set resolutions and by the middle of the year, I lose sight of many of them. One of the resolutions this year was to write five things that I am thankful for each night, well, here is my first public list… let’s see how I do with counting my blessings…
1. I am thankful for my roommates, because whether I like it or not, they are there for me, and this is a comfort to know.
2. Friends (counting my roomies), because they have my back; they encourage me, care about my well-being, make me laugh, accept me (quirks and all). I am extremely fortunate to have them in my life.
3. Family. I have such a supportive family. My parents always want more for me than what they had and care about my future. My sister is my best friend and cares about me, more than I often realize.
4. Sunshine. As the sun blinded me on my way to work, I thought about the essence that it does bring to my day. Without it, all would be dark. Without the warmth, we would not exist. Sunshine can hit you just right and bring a sensation that cannot help but make you happy. Sunshine is a wonderful thing.
5. I am thankful for my co-workers. They make me laugh. They care about my success and push me to do my best. They know when I am overwhelmed and do their best to relieve me of the stress. They are amazing and I am so blessed to have them in my life, especially in my work environment.
Today, I caught myself thinking, “Go figure,” multiple times. Something strange would happen and I would think it. Something random, unexpected, or needed, and I would thank God and say, “Go figure… you know exactly what I need, when I need it, and how to present it to me. I am absolutely fortunate.”
Along with all the blessings I have, I do have a lot of negative things I face on a daily basis. I am praying in depth for my uncle and my family. I am worried about my grandmother and her well-being. I even feel guilty about not being home to help relieve some of the stress that everyone back home is forced to face, but I need to keep a positive attitude and not lose sight of my blessings, for they do not fall in short… they seem to multiply by the day, and this is a blessing in itself.