Valentine’s Day was always my favorite holiday. When stores start packing their shelves with boxes of valentines, I am overcome with a sense of happiness.
Love is something that needs to be celebrated, but I would be lying if I said I am looking forward to another lonely Valentine’s day. My friends go out with their boyfriends and crushes, they bring home flowers, boxes of chocolate, and stuffed animals. They come to me, cuddled up to a blanket, watching Ever After… my Valentine’s Day tradition that I am hoping to break someday.
When I think back to my happiest Valentine’s Days, I think of the folded cards from my crushes, strategically placed in my classroom-made mailbox. I think back to the little parties we would have. I think back to knowing that my crush liked me back if I would find a Lifesaver Swirled Lollipop in my wonderful, drowning-in-hearts, mailbox. Those were my favorite.
Well, on a mission to make this year different than the last few, I have been searching for these lollipops. I may sound like a pathetic fatty, but these lollipops seem to bring hope back in my life; they seem to show me that it is all in the little things. That through something as small as a lollipop, there is joy, there are happy memories and, more importantly, they show me that there is a reason to keep hope alive. However, they do not seem to have them in any stores. Finding this calorie-infested treat may be a hopeless cause for me.
Right now, my Hello Kitty Snuggie and Ever After are looking like the easy way out. Maybe bringing hope back into my life is not as easy as I had wanted it to be.